...it's taking all the strength in the world to not cry now.
This time tommorrow, I'll be a college graduate.
I can't believe it.
I'm the first of my generation of family members who's actually graduating college.
This will make me the second person in my family to make it this far.

i think i've done it.
i've become one of the select few people who have a job before they graduate.
i'm employed.
I'm a Lab Tech at Cosmetic Essence Inc.
*throws confetti* Life is fab!

2 more finals and then its the end of my college career.
i'm slightly nauseated at the fact.

i've never really had an rdj obsession, but because of this picture. i have a slight one.
 


anyway, i think this journal is going to bite the dust in a week or so.

I just want it to be May 12th so I can be stress free.
There are just way too many things going on and this one thing just takes over any fleeting second I have of normal thought.
If I can figure this out, try and rationalize it and deal, I can possibly make it through.
But if the past couple of days show any glimpse of the future, this may break me.

the idea of graduation is becoming more and more realistic.
today, i just went and bought my senior week package.
christ chex.

i think i'm happy.
but then again, i'm not really sure.

so if this week couldn't get any worse...


- someone rear ends me, cracks my tail light cover and dents chiquita

- i lost my phone, only to have it found by an asshole who threatened to put some pix/vids up there on youtube and prank call all my friends (if you got a call/text anything from me after 12am on April 6th, it's not me)

- i have 2 exams and one quiz day after day after day.

-now, my grandmother is in the hospital, possibly on her death bed and i can't even go to see her b/c chiquita's not agreeing with the roads and general movement right now.

all i want to do is just crawl in a corner and get away from it all.

oh, have i mentioned that i'm not sure where i want to go after i graduate too? Yeah, fabulous.